How can we be in a world with so many people yet most of us still feel lonley?

 Now everytime I see you
   I pretend I'm fine
   When I wanna reach out to you
   But I turn and I walk and I let it ride
   Baby I must confess
   We were bigger than anything
   Remember us at our best
And don't forget about us.

I don't know where I'd be
     Without you here with me
  Life with you makes perfect sense
        You're my best friend

If love is a miracle, then I've got mine
Everybody is invisible, I don't need them in my life
Cuz you are my s u n s h i n e*

I felt like I had to get out of there because i might really care about you, and it scared me so much because that meant that you could hurt me. and maybe i didnt feel ready to like someone that much

He's the kinda guy who makes me want to fall in love again someday

Honestly, could it be, you and me, like it was before, neither less or more? Cause when I close my eyes at night, I realize, no one else could ever take your place

When no one else can understand me, when everything I do is wrong, You give me hope and consolation; you give strength to carry on...That's the wonder, the wonder of you...

I'd do anything for you, give you the world if I could

When I'm with you, I shake inside. My heart's all tangled up, my tongue is tied, it's crazy. Can't walk, can't talk, can't eat, can't sleep. Oh, I'm in love, oh I'm in deep. 'Cause baby… with a kiss you can strip me defenseless, with a touch I completely lose control. All that's left of my strength is a memory, oh… I get weak when I look at you, weak when we touch, I can't speak when I look in your eyes

Well it's all so overrated
In not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real


I must admit I still don't understand Why I lose my head holding your hand. There's no explanation, no simple excuse For this feeling I feel around you

what would you do. if my heart was torn in two. more than words to show you feel, and that your love for me is real. what would you say. if i took those words away. and you couldnt make things new. just by saying i love you. saying i love you. saying i need you. more than words. now that ive tried to talk to you and make u understand. all you have to do is close your eyes and just reach out your hands and touch me, hold me close dont ever let me go. more than words is all i ever needed you to show. then you wouldnt have to say that you love me. because i already know

love makes you do crazy things. it makes u want to jump off the highest buildings. why? because it gives you wings"<3

i'm twisted up when im twisted with you...

Cause Ive been thinking I'd
like to see your eyes
open up real wide the minute that you see me.

mistakes make you who you are
you learn and grow with each choice you make
everything is worth it say how you feel
always be you.. and be okay with it

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon


If every word I said could make you laugh, I'd talk forever

playing that song over again
tears falling from her eyes
wishing things would be the same
before all the hurt and lies. </3

I thought I had lost him for good. I should've known love wasn't through with us. I should've known love would bring him back

If you could see how blue his eyes can be when he says he loves me

&& let me be your
       most missed memory ..<3

you`re the reasons i live & the reasons i`d die
the reasons i`laugh or break down & cry
you`re the reasons i keep going & the reasons i fall
but without you in my life, i`m nothing

You're taking up all the space in my head
with all the things that we could do. and all the
things that could be said. it's hard for me to try
and understand the way i feel about you & the
way it made me feel to hold your hand _;; <33

When i stand up for myself and my beliefs, they call me a BiTCH. when i stand up for those i love, they call me a BiTCH. when i speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way, they call me a BiTCH. being a BiTCH means i won't compromise what's in my heart. it means i live my life MY way. it means i won't allow anyone to step on me. when i refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it, i am defined as a BiTCH. the same thing happens when i take time for myself instead of being everyone's maid, or when i act a little selfish. it means i have the courage and strength to allow myself to be who i truly am and won't become anyone else's idea of what they think i "should" be. i am outspoken, opinionated and determined. i want what i want and there is nothing wrong with that! so try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. you won't succeed. and if that makes me a BiTCH, so be it.

I love being with you. I don't have to work hard to impress anyone..you know all my faults. I can cry in front of you, & you'll just hold me until I stop..or I can laugh so hard I cry..& you'll laugh with me until we're both crying. And it's perfect. How sometimes we don't have to say anything. Just being together is enough. Even though we know everything about each other, we still never run out of things to talk about. Youre always there for me, either to hold me or laugh with me. You've been with me through everything, and I can't imagine ever not having you in my life. I love having you in my life..

 

There will come a time in your life when
you will become infatuated with a single soul.
For this person you'd do anything
and not think twice about it,
but when asked why...you have no answer.
You'll try your whole life to understand
how a single person can affect you
as much as they do,
but you'll never find out.
And no matter how badly you hate it
or how badly it hurts
you'll love this person without regret
for the rest of your life

 

something in your EYES makes me wanna
loose myself in your arms <3 there`s some
thing in ur V0iCE; that makes my heart beat
faster n` faster & i hope this FEELiNG lasts
the rest of my life!!!!

 

in this weird ;; twisted way i know you miss me,
not because i want to believe it but because you
will never find a girl that will put up with you ..
LiKE i DiD </3

 

I hope one day you'll realize how lucky you were
to have someone love you the way I did
& how stupid you were to let it go

 

g o o d b y e s ... always - hurt
.. they make you ` t h i n k about
what you had ; what you [ lost ]
&' what you've taken for granted

 

Sometimes it takes being away from someone for a while to realize how much you really need them in your life.<3

The hardest thing about growing up is that you
have to do what's best for you.. even if it means
breaking someone's heart..including your own..

 

i thought i was going to forget you but i was wrong. i thought i was getting over you but it's been a lie for so long. i though i'd be able to hate you but its something i cant do. no matter where i go or what i do, i'm still in love with you

 

when everyone is telling me ive changed
the truth is i really havent; i've just
stopped living my life their way

 

your such a hypocrite
can't you see
you do exactly the same thing
you dont want people to do
to me. and hun, i've always there for you.
and i shouldn't even be

 

i can't explain it.
even if i could
   i don't think you'd ever get it.

 

 

that night....ohhh that night...
so crazy. full of happiness.
now its so far away...
even the memory of it
is starting to slowly but surely fall apart

 

go save up your lies for the next girl
im done with this pain and bullshit

When she was young she learned to pretend. So when she got older she had to use for it. She put on fake smiles and put away her tears. She pretended that she loved her life

 

just forget every secret we had, don't bother to remember every laugh we shared. erase me from your memory cause we both know you never really cared <|3

wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together, So I wouldn't have to wake without you today. This time I thought things were real, I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.

You've got eniemies? Good. It means you've
stood up for something in your life

I've moved on and feel sorry for you because I thought you were the most amazing boy ever. If I could have any guy in the world, I would have picked you above the others. I thought you were different. I was wrong. you're just another guy to me now.

Tears rolled down her cheek and landed on her lips, he reached up and wiped them away with his gentle fingertips, her face was red from crying, he held her tight with everything he had and didn't let her go until she was no longer sad, he listened to every word she said and showed her that he cared, he told her he loved her and let her know that he'd be there, he listened to her heart beat and smiled as he hugged her, he did all these things because he truly loved her <3,,, aweee how sweet!

and if i died right now
would you feel guilty
how badly you treated me?

she read his words like a blind man, feeling every emotion that went through his mind, knowing exactly what he was talking about.  a cold tear ran down her soft cheek slowly, no words to describe.  she couldnt speak, or give her opinion, just thoughts of regret. she couldnt deal with it anymore, what had she done to this beautiful soul, she killed his happiness...so lost.....so tortured by beasts from the past and present...thoughts constantly piercing through her mind. she picked herself off of the ground....not wiping away the tears...her head filled w/ blindness...she fell back into a dark hell laying, scared and lost, not knowing what she needs or wants. all she can think of is how it used to be. she stays there....until she knows what to do...the beautiful angel had caused so much pain to herself and others now she is ugly. she sits and waits for a better day, not knowing when it is..not wanting to make her fait worse...she waits...indecisive...until life takes its course....when can she be beautiful again?

theres always those girls
who your just around so much
and love them
to death

be sure to take a picture
of every great moment you have
because photos wont change
but the [[people]] in them might

your first love
really cant ever die
cuz you cant forget
all the moments and laughs
you had with the one special person
and certain special times

i wanna run away and never say goodbye
i want to know the truth instead of wondering [why]

i want someone to lay with me under the stars
and not want me to go further
than a kiss && i love you

lets play truth or dare
or just dare
because no one ever really tells
the truth anymore

i care about you
more than you know
and i dont want to see you hurt
because i love your smile && your laugh
the way you make others laugh
but couldnt you just think the same about me?

how will i ever know
if you like me
and have always wanted to make a move
or if you just want me like i want you

 you were there for me for so many years
making me laugh while i was in tears . 
i will never let anyone take your place because youre the best friend ive got .

you dont know what i think of you
and maybe you just think im someone who doesnt care
but i care and i wish you would
know and feel the same way
about m.e

being around someone
for so much && so long
they become a part of you
and when they change or leave
you wont know who you are completley
without them

best friends let you be yourself
your crazy, insane, dorky self
when your around them <3

&& its those days you wish you had a boyfriend to 
cuddle with, hold hands, kiss && tell him everything
or just by looking at him and knowing you mean the world
to him && he loves you with all of his heart. it's those days
you have to wish for a fantasy to become reality. 
the days when all you want
is him to love you

im not saying i dont want you
im just tired of trying to chase
after you.

how is it that we go to school
for so long
and not once, not once, do they teach
us how to say [[goodbye]]

everyone needs a friend
to help them when they
never think they will smile again

and every scar cant show...

sometimes i cant believe
why everything happens
when one day everything will just end
and there you'll go
you'll be gone.
but, really, what happens after that
how can you just forget everything you once did

and its not something to be okay with
but yes, i still love the jerk that broke my heart

and have you ever wanted to ask a question
but you heart is a.f.r.a.i.d
of the answer

the more im with you
the more i realize
im doing the one thing i told myself
i wouldnt do again
im falling in love with you

its hard enough to love someone
who doesnt love you back
but its even ((h a r d e r))
to watch the one you love
love someone else

i feel so alone sometimes
and even though i know
i have people who care about me
i cant help but think only of
the things that bother me the most

doesnt everybody hate those guys
who know you love them
and tell you they love you back
but when you turn your back
hes gone
just gone

i try to think everything over
and tell myself who cares
keep going on with life
but its just not that easy
and i dont think i will ever
find the right way

why do i have to wait so long
to have that one special relationship
with the one guy that matters
why is it taking forever
everyone is talking about their story
and here i am thinking
"where's mine?"

shes saying goodbye
and shes leaving tonight
shes wasted all her lonely teardrops now

and when i walk down the hall
we walk right by eachother
and maybe your thinking i didnt see you
but, oh, believe me
your something i could never miss
she needs to stop thinking about
how she will look for him
because hes to busy
looking at how the other girls look
and she just wont ever be good enough <|3
she keeps falling but shes afraid
that no one will ever catch her
boys think girls can just
get over a guy
and they can think whatever they wont
but its not that easy
kiss me in the rain ¢¾
sometimes i just lie in bed
and think about you,
look out my window...
and start to cry,
turn up my music
loud enough so no one can hear me
s.c.r.e.a.m
she walks around
just around the neighborhood
alone
and thinks to herself
what if he ran up beside me
but these are just;
dreams && fantasies
 When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her head.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of question,
she's wondering how long you'll be around.
When a girl answers "i'm fine" she isn’t
When a girl stares at you,
she's wondering why you're lying.
When a girl wants to see you everyday,
she doesnt wanna loose you
When a girl says "i love you",
she means it more than anything else.
When a girl says "i miss you",
no one in this world can miss you more than that
and i want you to  know
exactly how i feel
but im afraid of what
you might say
i dont want to give up on you
but maybe its time <|3
in your life .. you will meet [o n e . g u y]
unlike any other .. you can talk to him
& never get bored  tell him everything
& never get judged s.m.i.l.e & get butterflies
everytime you see his face hear his name or voice
            this person is a true love
Don’t fall for the guy
with the gorgeous eyes
until you have learned
What lies behind them.
and would you say anything
if i told you
"i love you"
as she looks into the mirror
&& wipes the running mascara
she says to herself
i wont ever be good enough for him
these are the moments
i remeber all my life <3
cant we just hold hands
and walk down the street
in the pouring rain
everytime i try to stop liking you
you come back and take my  ♥
heart away  ...             
[ a.g.a.i.n ]
rather be is closer

Maybe there are no right moments,
no right guys, no right answers..maybe
sometimes you just have to say what's
in your heart, not just what you think
someone wants to hear.. <|3

it seems like everytime your around ii have
to force myself to act normal && pretend
like theres nothing wrong..except that it
kills me to know ;; i cant have you

 

as we grow up, there's going to be many things
that we don't like. hookups that mean so much
more to one person && nothing to the other.
girls who like the same guy you like. you'll meet
new people who may matter to you more than
others might ;; but the one guy who stays by you
till the end ;; will be the one.


too often we dont realize
what we have till it's gone
too often we wait too late
to say `im sorry . i was wrong `
sometimes it seems we hurt the ones
we hold dearest to our hearts&
we allow the foolish things to tear our lives appart
far too many times we let
unimportant things into our mind *&
then it's usually 2 late
to see what made us BliND

If she could show you how much you
hurt her ; you'd never be able to look her
in the eyes again.. </3

It's weird how you say that you
hate the boy who broke your heart
but when he runs back to you, your
arms are w i d e o p e n..

 

never though i'd risk the
chance of getting hurt again
but for some reason thinking about
being with you makes it all seem worth it

i swear the best thing is
listening to soemones heartbeat & know
its beating because of you

best memories, best times, best friends<3 when
you`re sad ..We’ll get drunk and plot revenge on
the asshole who upset you. when you trip .. i`ll laugh
and ask "walk much?" && when you`re confused ..
i`ll use little words to explain it to your dumb ass.<3

no i don't miss you. i miss who i thought you we're.i miss the guy who useto be there for me everyday.. the one who chased away my fears and told me everything was going to be okay.. thats the guy i miss. i can't miss you .. i don't even know who you are anymore..

she wanted to tell him how she felt
tell him how many hours she cried
her heart out » finally one day she
got the courage up to try ;; he just
[( i g n o r e d )] her && walked on by

Sure I like the whole
single, party, fun thing ;;
but sometimes I wouldn't mind the whole
hugging, holding hands, I'm his girl kinda thing

It's every girls dream to have
a guy call her at 3 a.m. just to
say `hey babe... just wanted
to tell you i love you`.

I want everything to be ok. I dont want to cry anymore. I dont want to worry. I dont l want l to go to bed every night thinking of what tommorrow will bring, and thinking that I could have done something different. Im scared of what will happend if I do something different. I just want to stop everything, and know that everything is ok. x3

she hasn't looked at another boy the same
shes hurt and shes acheing
and she's tired of faking
she knows she needs to move on and find someone new
but lately, she's been missing you

there for me even when i was crying
makin me laugh when i feel like dying
i know i can always count on her til
the very end. we¡¯ve been thru every
thing.. my true bestest friend

When I see you together, my heart breaks in half and it's not because I hate her and not because she doesn't deserve you and it's not because I still love you... It's because I always told you that you deserve the best, and now I'm afraid you found it. </3

Promise me. That's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you'll always remember me. Losing you was hard enough. But, I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you

Do you know what it's like to reach for the phone and pull your hand back because you remember you're not supposed to call him anymore? You sit there with tears building up in your eyes because you know it's not the last time you'll miss the conversations you've shared...</3

There's a place in my heart,
that will never belong to
anyone, but you.


i think back to the day that we met and smile
i wonder what went wrong and how this all happend

everyone swears they care
until someone better comes along...



NEVER doubt that i love you ;;
i need you more than you know.. i
wish i could hold you forever & never
let go. You prove it more everyday
that we were meant to be.. So believe
me when i say you're the one for me.

 

No camera could ever capture the look in her eyes
&& the feeling in her heart when she looks at him <3


&& when he kissed me that night
I couldnt help but think,
"this is exactly what I want"

its kinda hard to be with someone
when you know deep down youre
still in love with someone else <|3

the only people who you need in your life
are the people who need you in theirs <3


you never really stop loving someone -
you just learn to get along without them.


eventually, one of the two things
will happen ; he'll realize you're
worth it or you'll realize he isn't

 

isn't it funny how when you
want it the most you can't have it?
&& when you have it you don't care
&& once you lose it you'd do anything
just to get it back

Go ahead and look away
Act like everything's okay
Ignore my tears, I understand
Kill me as you take her hand

 

i am the author of my life ...
unfortunetly im writing in pen
and can`t erase my mistakes

I cant stand him hurting me. I just cant stand him using me but unlike him, I just cant walk away. I cant forget what he had. Its not that easy for me to let go of something that was once my life. I guess it actullay mattered to me. The feelings that are the most painful are the ones that nobody can explain, no quote that can describe, and no tears or smiles can make them go away. They're the ones that hurt the deepest, last the longest and take forever to forget about.

---» you will never know
how many times i've laid
in my bed all night just
thinking how much you
mean to me & how much
«3 . . . i love you . . . «3

and it's those days you wish you had a boyfriend to
cuddle with , hold hands , kiss , tell him everything.
i just want to be loved by someone

it's funny how you can have all the friends in the world,
but it just doesnt feel right without that 0NE person..

I know how it feels when everything you do is wrong. How everytime you try to help, something always seems to not work. How everytime you wish a guy would love you but he loves someone else. How even though you try your absolute hardest everyone wants more. How it feels to love someone and have them hate you...

*&& i kno how it feels
to sit on the edge of your bed
head in your hands
wishing it would all just end...

*i just wanna fade right out of myself
like when shadows disappear in twilight
and it's getting so much harder to accept
the fact that i am stuck here
i can't hide from my own eyes









*Nobody knew how Much she blamed herself !

*she pulled the trigger & her mask fell to the floor with a shatter as everyone watched, theres only so much pain one teenage girl's heart can take & you my dear have exceeded the limits </3

*Have you ever had that empty feeling inside liek no one cares or loves you back .. Feeling as if you were to cry, no one would be there to dry your tears..

someday someone's gonna come along
and put the pieces of my heart back together.
I'm just worried about the one little piece that
they're not going to be able to find, the one that
makes the puzzle complete, the one that you took
the day you walked away.

think the only reason why he is playing all these games is because he knows im always going to be here waiting for him.

-most things that come my way are bad..
    but there are always those 
        lil things that make life worth
                    living for-

why can you do what you want but when i even come close to another guy you flip out.. o because its all about you.. sorry i forgot!

HIDING.. thats wht i do best becuase i learned to hide my tears along time ago!

Teardrops fall from those pretty little eyes
it's kind of hard to move on when you only told lies
she's breaking down & everyone's fading,
it's been too long && shes tired of waiting.

how can one person mean the world to you.. and to them you are just another girl!?

you have been the only one i could even think about being with since him.. even though i didnt really want to move on i found you but you didnt care you just shut me out like everyone else did

the truth is we only hide because we want to be found,we only walk away because we want to see who will follow us,and we only break our hearts to see who will mend them.

he has no idea what goes on through her mind - - <3
S H E ` S S O G O O D A T P R E TE N D i N G
he will never know how many tears are fallen each
night for him.. nor the endless hours that she wastes
thinking.. maybe; just maybe..

i just want someone to care about me.. to come up hug me and tell me how much he loves me.. and i want to fall asleep in his arms while he puts his hands though my hair... but it will never happen...

ii`ll remember the laughter as we go our separate ways ;;
but there's so much we're learning & we can not be afraid.
There's a world outside our door & nothing in our way, but
if it's not what we're looking for, we'll meet again someday.

i find it so amazing that a person can like u but not tell then u do one thing wrong... and then they tell u... i dont get it... and honestly i miss you!

you hug him `goodbye`
like it's >>nothing<<
while all you want to do
is hold on ||forever||
but, you --> let go &
walk .a w a y. then
you *cry* all the way
//home// because it will
never >>be the same<<
`try as you might` you
can't ||make someone||
love <3 you

THE TRUTH AB0UT GiRLS <3
- midol is like crack; end of story.
- we love ben && jerrys more than you.
- we will never be too old for sleepovers.
- gossip isn`t a sin; it`s an art.
- we must go to the bathroom in groups.
- we have this thing called feelings; don`t hurt them.
- there`s no point in having an ex if you can`t be a bitch to him.
- we don`t wake up looking pretty. it takes time and effort.
- sometimes is just never quite enough.
- we need girls nights; OFTEN.
- we hold grudges and we never forget the things you say to us that hurt.
- it doesn`t matter who dumped who or why. whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us.. not because we`re not over you, but because we know we used to be that girl.
- no guy wants to marry a whore. well, no girl wants to marry a manwhore either.
- never ever ask a girl what she weighs; or imply anything about her weight being too much or too little. just don`t do it.
- our eyes are located in our heads. not our chest or butt. So when you`re not looking in our eyes, WE KN0W

the truth is, we hide so we can be found.
we walk away to see who will follow, we
cry to see who will wipe away our tears &&
we let our hearts get broken to see who
will come && fix them

i love being with you..I dont have to work hard
to impress anyone you know all my faults I can cry in
front of you & you'll just hold me until I stop or I can
laugh so hard I cry & you'll laugh with me until were
both crying & its perfect how sometimes we dont have
to say anything just being together is enough.. even
though we know everything about each other we still
never run out of things to talk about. your always there
for me whether to hold me or laugh with me you've been
with me through everything & I cant imagine ever not
having you in my life. I love having you in my life.
forever is what Ive always imagined myself sharing with you <3

 

& i just wanna stare at your beautiful eyes & fall asleep in
your arms because i know that i`m always going to be happy
when i`m with you.

Think of how different it would be
if you never met the one person
who changed everything

Don't leave the one you love,
for the one you like.
'Cause the one you like,
will leave you for the one,
they love

no matter how much i`m crying or how depressed i am;
or how much i don`t want to be here.. i can always smile
for you. *

please don`t break my heart;; you`re the one who finally put it back
together

if you see me walking with someone else, it's not because
i love them. it's because you're ;; not there to walk beside me.
if i fall in love with someone else it's not because i wanted to.it's
because you weren't there to catch me when i wanted you __


When this is said & done
I really hope you look back &
wonder if maybe falling in love
with me wasn't such a bad thing


sirens of the ambulance ---- wake up in
the e m e r g e n c y room ----- & hear the
doctors say "she isn`t going to make it"
just so you could find out who really
c a r e s a b o u t y o u ? ~~ Thats weird i was just talking to someone about that and how i wish i could do that~~

 hate it how I can not talk to you for about a month
but then all of a sudden youu talk to me again and
it`s like as if nothing happened & i slowly
start falling for you all over again

you've done it. you've made me start to fall in love with you.
i'm sitting here crying because i'm so scared. but at the same time
i'm so happy i'm falling in love with you.
you're the person i've waited for all this time,
the person i've looked for all my life
and when i least expected it you walked into my life.
you listen when i talk, are there when i cry
and you made me finally smile. i'm crying for
the last time i hope, and i trust that you won't hurt me.
it's so hard for me to trust guys, but you're
worth it to me. so, here's my heart, see all the
little cracks? they're pretty small and healed
nicely, but you, i know, you're the one that
could make it completely shatter. promise me you
won't, please, promise me you'll love me forever
and that you won't break my heart. even if you
can't promise me that, i'll give you my heart anyway.
cause i know that if i don't i'll regret it for the rest of my life.
you're the only person who is necessary in my life.

&& when he kissed me that night I couldnt help but think,
"this is exactly what I want"

surrounded by her friends in school
she feels free, with no worries
being her loud, crazy self
smiling at all her friends that walk by
laughing at all the jokes..
until the moment she walks off that bus
where shes surrounded by the walls of her home
a place where it doesnt feel like h. o. m. e. anymore

Being lonely isn't the worst feeling.It's being forgotten by someone you could never forget.


*.:.I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have arms to hold you with, ears to listen to whatever you wanna talk about, and a heart thats aching to see you smile again.:.*

Who would I turn to?
Where would I go?
You're the only one I love..
The only one who knows.
How would I live?
How would I survive?
What would happen..
without you in my life?

Staying there in your arms, I never felt so comfortable and safe. My heart was beating a mile a minute. Having you so close to me as you played with my hair and kissed me I couldn't help, but smile. Straight from my heart I could see how much you cared. From the look in your eyes, it made me never want to let go. To just stay wrapped in your arms where nothing else mattered, but you and me. x3

Teardrops fall from those pretty little eyes
it's kind of hard to move on when you only told lies
she's breaking down & everyone's fading,
it's been too long && shes tired of waiting.


Smell her hair, pick her up and pretend you are going to throw her into the pool..she'll scream and fight you but secretely she'll love it.. Just hold her hand. Tell her she looks pretty, look her into the eyes when you talk to her. Protect her. Tell her stupid jokes. Tickle her, even if she says stop. Slow dance with her. When she starts swearing at yo u, tell her you love her. Let her fall asleep in your arms. Get her mad then kiss her. Tease her. Let her tease you back. Stay up with her when shes sick. Let her wear your clothes. kiss her in the rain. And when you fall in love with her..tell her!...<3

do youu even realize the sorrow i have inside
everyday of my life? do you know how it
feels when all youu have just dies?
i try and try to deny that i need you
but still youu remain on my mind.

i know he doesn`t wanna be with me
he wants to be with her so i'm not going
to interfere.. i'm just going to sit back   
&& watch my whole world disappear.<|

Why iz it tht my first love
will never love me back?
That even if he did
i would have to lie and say
'i dont love you'?
Why does he have to be the one kid
that i could never have?
That going out with him
woud be the worst thing i could do?
I want him
I need him
but i cant ever have him <//3

i'm gonna smile when i wanna cry.'
        act HAPPY` when i wanna DIE.
    laugh loud when i'm feeling blue.
          &; i won't let it bother me when ...
   [ i see her with you.  ]"

One day we're "talking", then dating..then you
find someone else, a STUPID H0 - who's only
gonna be around to have some fun; then she's
gonna dump your sorry ass - & when she does -
don't even think about crawling back to me. <\3

LiFE`S CYCLE
At age 4 . . . success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 . . . success is . . . having friends.
At age 16 . . . success is . . . having a driver's license.
At age 20 . . . success is . . . having sex.
At age 35 . . . success is . . . having money.
At age 50 . . . success is . . . having money.
At age 60 . . . success is . . . having sex.
At age 70 . . . success is . . . having a driver's license.
At age 75 . . . success is . . . having friends.
At age 80 . . . success is . . . not peeing in your pants.


I am such a sucker for your
{BiG BLUE EYEz*}

I’m just laying here

Waiting for that one moment to come

That is going to help my pain

The pain that is taking me over the edge

The edge I don’t want to go over

So this little moment might make a difference

And it might be all I need to help me

 

Were just girls right ?
Well you could never
I m a g I n e   ,
How much it hurts
Our hearts when you
Say             no .

 

i`m so sick of falling for
guys, who don`t want
to fall back

 

she says she ' doesn`t care '
but look into her eyes & the
tone of her voice tell a whole
different story

 

She closes her eyes,
as her makeup runs ..
He got the best of her`*

WE LIVE LIKE VAMPIRES *
& WE LOVE LKE KILLERS  *
WE ALL DIE LIKE INFANTS*
&  WE TRUST LIKE MIRRORS

Never meant to cut so deep ||Just enough to bleed||

I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
And I don't know if I've ever really been loved

& Just for once I want someone
to be afraid to loose me <33

I'm praying for an accident
to take me away from all of this

if you ever begin to miss me just remember... your the one who lets me go.

Why is it that you linger in my mind and in my life so often, but when I need you most, your gone?


All I want is a chance ..
A chance to prove how great we could be ..
A chance to show you we were meant to be more than just friends ..
A chance to prove all the jokes, long phone calls, stupid, childish fights all meant something.


iiM SiiCK 0F CARiiNG AND FiiGHTiNG F0R THiNGS THAT [[ NEVER C0ME TRUE ]] SETTiNG MY H0PES UP T00 FAR iS S0METHiiNG ii GUESS iiM USED T00 x / 3


 i HATE H0W WE D0NT TALK F0R WEEKS, BUT THEN ALL 0F A SUDDEN Y0U TALK T0 ME AGAiN & iTS LiKE N0THiNG HAPPENED& i SL0WLY START FALLiNG F0R Y0U ALL 0VER AGAiN


if tears made you pretty..............i would be the perttyest gurl alive.


You break my heart . .then tell me you love me, ask me not to cry, and say you'll call back later to check on me.. you never called and you didn't mean anything you said.. i finally mangage to forget about you, and then you come back into my life, sad and angry that you screwed things up for yourself.. well gorgeous, im sorry && i love you. but ill you call later to make sure your heart isnt too broken, and Remember: try not to cry over me


It's no big deal.
Break her heart.
Let her down.
Make her cry.
You love her, right?
Everything is fine.
Hold her hand.
Lead her on..
it's no big deal..
she's just a girl

not even makeup could make her
look beautiful;; because real
beauty is loving yourself && that'`s
something she could never do

he's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes
And see an ounce of pain

&& today she sat there crying on her bed,
holding her phone..waiting for his call..
but at the same time..knowing that it will never come..

I hate it when my cell phone rings
&& your name doesn't show
I hate it when I hear our song
it kills me long && slow
I hate the way you still smile at me
even though she's at your side
I hate the nights when I’m all alone
&& all the times I cried
I hate the way you say my name
or just the way you look
I hate the way you'll never see
&& the way you'll never know

She’s lying on her bed staring at the ceiling
All the lights turned off, its 3 am
Headphones around her ears… dark feelings
Staring within and yet she lies there paralyzed
Uttering not a single word

Dreams don't always come true. My tears start falling, my heart is breaking in two. If you think love is a game, well let me tell you this: When you find yourself alone, I'll be the one you miss.

I guess this is it. I've always imagined what it was going to be like when we finally did say goodbye. So here we are. I always had everything planned out that I wanted to say when this finally happened. But to tell you the truth...the only thing I feel like I'm capable of saying right now is I'll miss you. And I promise you...I always will.

I was thinking about you last night. I was thinking how wonderful it would be if you were thinking of me too. But then I realized, you weren't thinking of me, you were thinking of her. Yet, just like me, you were wondering if she was thinking of you. Maybe she was, maybe she wasn't. But I do know one thing, if even for the slightest moment you thought of me, we would be thinking of each other, because I cant keep you off my mind.

You may not know it yet, maybe you'll never even think about it...but I'm special. You're gonna meet a lot of girls throughout your life...and a lot of them will be special to you. But I'm telling you right now, you'll never find another me. So take another look around you Buddy. Because I'm leaving and I may never come back. Are you going to let this princess just walk out of your life? Or are you going to make her sit down and try on that glass slipper you're holding? And if she does take the time to try it on, are you going to hope it fits??

I can't eat, I cant' sleep, and sometimes I find it hard to breathe. I break down and cry, not knowing why, and now I can't lie, I'm standing on the edge of goodbye.

so close your eyes and search
deeper than just memories
i never stopped believing in you and me
your leaving never changed things
i've been here for too long
to just walk away

how come i learned to see and imperfect person perfectly but you cant even take once glance at me and and take me into consideration

laying here on this empty shelf never to be read again
in these pages lies every memory of you

you took me over the edge
and left me there to fall by myself
the word love meant nothing to you
i was taken in with your lies
and you knew i was too weak

God take me because i hate me

caught up in the moment of depression

have you ever felt like you could be there for a person so much and when it comes down to you being the one upset they are never there for you...

comparing to the last time that we had spoke it seems to
me that youre not happy like you used to be
to you im like a flavor that wouldnt last you took one bite
than spat me out real fast
and now this mark remains and will never ever go away

In case you were wondering;; you are
like a sunset to me, you’re all kinds
of beautiful as you end my day, and
you sweetly retire as stars chase you away.

i lie to everyone and tell them how sweet you are but really when i tell them its all a lie just to make you look better... why i do it i still will never know...

How does it feel to know you're
everything I need? The butterflies
in my stomach they could bring me
to my knees. How does it feel to
know you're ( everything ) I want?

nobody understands how much i miss you. miss
how much we used to talk and miss all the things
we used to do. i try not to admit it to myself that
i still feel this way. nobody knos that i still wake
up think`n of you each day... i still think of you n
i really do miss you. i would give up everything i
have to be everything that we`re not


she thinks if she calls him it shows
weakness so the hurt goes on with
every tear she`s cried..aint it sad to
see a good love fall to pieces?


still is the light of your room when you're not inside, and all
of your things tell the sweetest story line. tears on these
sheets and your footprints are down the hall tell me what i did,
i cant find where the moment went wrong at all


and i can't remember life before his name

i`d waste away the last sunrise just staring into your beautiful
eyes. & listening to the waves rise & fall

i want to hold your hand forever&never let you go; you`ve got those beautiful brown eyes i adore;


tonight i will sleep with the gun in my mouth. goodbye my love </3

it doesn't feel
right ; holding
someone elses
hand <//3

say goodbye;
i die a little.

 really want to call you
but i know it's not right.
i probably shouldn't tell
you that i dreamed of you
last night. <33


i fall asleep
tonight, 'cause
thats the only thing that brings me closer to you

i know your worth the
wait` & i cant explain
what i`m going through
inside but i would turn
away the world just to
have you here with me
(( tonight ))

i wish i was pretty
when i smiled; just
like that girl your
i n l o v e with

i'm overwhelmed with hatred
for you. yet i couldn't be
more in love. its like, i
wanna throw you into traffic,
then risk my own life, just to save you

when i said i loved you a tear rolled
'down my cheeks,not because i was
sad or in the mood to cry but b cuz it
was the first time i said it & meant it
more than anythiinq __ *`

i never thought i would risk the chance
of getting hurt again .. but for some reason ..
when im with youu .. it all seems worth it

everyone keeps asking me if i'm okay;
what am i supposed to tell them?
no, i'm not okay .. and then whatt?
so i just smile and say i'm fine
even though i'm really dying inside

You're the best friend I've ever had
but when i look in your eyes, I'm not sure
friendship is all i see.. <33

figures that i would find the perfect guy,
and he would already have the perfect girl.


Remember when you used to
sing to me on the phone?
You were such a bad singer,
but i still kinda miss it </3

he takes me for granted thinking i'll always be there
because he knows i've alwys been the one who has cared,
but one day when he needs me the most and asks me to stay
my back will be turned and i'll be walking away
just like he did to me<\3

i always say to myself, next time he leaves me and then comes running back, im going to leave him, not let him in, do what hes always done to me. but every time you do i let

We're making out inside crashed cars
We're sleeping through all our memories
I used to waste my time dreaming of being
alive now I only waste it dreaming of you

I'm two quarters and a
heart down, and I don't
want to forget how your
voice sounds


In sleep he sang to me,
in dreams he came
that voice which calls to me
and speaks my name...
And do I dream again?

Too many years fighting
back tears . . . why can't
the past just die . . .?

(¨`·.·´¨)*ur Just Messing With My Mind
`·.¸(¨`·.·´¨)*I Don't Even Kno y I Go
`·.¸.·´*And Waste My Time
(¨`·.·´¨)*I Cant Stand The Things u Do
`·.¸(¨`·.·´¨)*But I Still End Up 
       `·.¸.·´*Falling In Love With You!

Have you ever been lying in your bed
thinking about him & your body starts
to tingle & all of a sudden you want
nothing more than to be in his arms?

 Guys always make girls cry .. but if
a girl can make a guy cry, she must really mean something to him <3

i may not be perfect
i may not be happy::
i may not be the -->
most beautiful girl &
for that i am sorry.::
but deep down im -
sure theres a part ~:
[of me worth loving]

by the world`s standards,
you may not be perfect<3
-------» or even close to it
but i love you and to me...
ur as perfect as can be *`

It's funny how certain things trigger memories.
Songs, smells, and such. Some make you sad
and some make you just close your eyes & for
that one moment you are captured in the past.
It’s moments like those that make life confusing.


Its when Im around
You n o t h i n g can go
Wrong - every regret
Becomes forgotten
And all my problems
Are suddnly [ gone ]

Hi " is such a small word.
but from the right person
it can mean [ everything]

i wanna be that girl he's scared to lose
the one where he [ can't ] walk away from
knowing she’s mad at him, the one who can't
fall asleep without her voice being the last
one he hears -> the one he wouldn't know
w H a t t o d o w i t h o u t"

& all I need right now is for you to wrap me up in your arms, look me in the eyes && tell me you wont ever give up <33

isn't it funny how you [[hate]] the guy that broke your heart yet when he comes running back your arms are wide open?

if one day you say goodbye &it comes to an end
give me one last kiss before we become just friends.
i want a kiss so long& so wet
that it will be impossible to forget
the way that your lips fit perfectly with mine.
the shocking sensation when our tongues interwine.
this one last kiss will send me right down memory lane
to see us soaking wet lip locking in the rain.
all the times we had & ill the things ill miss.
i'll cherish it all with this one last kiss.

you say im always with different guys & yeah i admit its true
but i'd give all that up if you'd say i could be with you <33

Its amazing how you feel about him. whenever you`re around him nothing else matters...how your heart stops and you`re left breathless and no matter how many times he breaks your heart he always seems to put the pieces back together

Just when you least expect it, you start thinking about how he makes you laugh and how you feel when your around him you realize that after all this time, you care about him a lot more than you thought.

i never thought i would risk
       the chance of getting hurt again
       but for some reason, when i`m with you
       it all seems worth it.

Hershey Kisses: $2.99
       One Rose: $3.40
       Big Teddybear: $8.35
       Your crush finally admitting
       he likes you: Priceless

He isn't my boyfriend -- but i love his hugs, his smile, his advice, his love, his kindness and the times we laugh together. i guess i fell in love with our friendship..

Sometimes you make me so mad
       I want to push you into oncoming traffic
       but then I realize....
       I'd kill myself trying to save you

There are so many things I want to say to you, but time's caught me up and now I'll never say them -- except that I've loved you from the moment I saw you and every moment since

I miss you when something really good happens, because you’re the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you’re the one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you’re the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time, but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night, and think of all the wonderful times that we spent with each other for those were some of the best and most memorable times of my life.

I looked at him, & he looked at me,
       and it was almost like.. for a split second,
       we forgave each other for everything

Just the thought of being with you
       tomorrow is enough to get me
       through today.

Maybe the reason why I haven’t found who
       I’ve been searching for is because I know that
       I’ve already found him. It’s just up to him to
       say whether I am who he has been waiting for.

When you start thinking about him
         & how he makes you laugh
         & how he makes you feel around him
         you realize that you care about him
         more than you thought you did

i'd rather go blind than to see you walk away from me.
         i'd rather go deaf than hear you say you hate me.
         i'd give up all things just to be with you.
         because what's everything if i don't have you?

 There's always that one person who's worth
all the time you thought you were wasting.

sometimes dont you just wish that there was a button that said... " RESTART LIFE"
it would be nice huh!?

The sweetest sound of all
         is that of your own name spoken
         by the only boy you care about

Dont call me obsessed when i'm only
         scared of losing the best thing that's ever
         happened to me..

when I tell you I love you
         I don't say it as a habit
         I say it to remind you
         that you're the best thing
         thats ever happened to me

All he is is a friend, a very good friend,
         who can make me smile like no other

You care more about his life,
         than you care about your life
         because, let's face it, he makes
         your life... worth living

Baby -- I don’t know what I’d do without you
         Don’t know where I’d be
         Your not just another guy....
         you’re everything to me

I feel like I owe you everything because
         you were there when I had nothing.

 guess my jelousy is just my way
         of show youu how much im afraid of
         losing you.

Even though i`m moving on. I will never forget you, all because you were my first true love. & there will come a time in my life when I will thank you for that because by you breaking my heart.... made me a lil bit stronger & you made me a little bit closer to finding the one that i`m meant to spend the rest of my life with...

& when he's not around
         there's something missing in her smile

when you kissed me that night,
         i couldn't help but think this is exactly
         what i have waited for my whole life.

You gave me back something I thought I'd lost :
         feelings I thought I'd never feel again

People tell me im beautiful, but i never think its true;
         the only way i`ll believe it is if i hear it come from you....

You're the best friend I've ever had
         but when I look in your eyes, I'm
         not sure friendship is all I see

& for a few moments, I actually felt like I 
            meant something to someone

 he gets her out of bed in the morning,
         drags her to school, pulls her through classes,
         brightens up her day, & doesn't even know he does it

10th grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it.

After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep.

She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year

The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read:

I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried.


we hold on to--memories *
to hold on to the--past
because people change
and not all friendships--last

goodbyes hurt you more than anything..
especially when deep down you know..
you will n e v e r say hello again

ALL SHE WANTS TO BE iS BEAUTiFUL...
she`s gorgeous. she`s beautiful. she stares in the mirror
and hates what she sees. she spends hours in the morning
fixing her hair, putting on make-up, && still hating her
reflection. she exercises five hours a day, starves herself
skinny, makes herself throw up at night. she goes in
depression. starts cutting herself. she spends thousands to
go under the knife to change the beauty she already had.
she`s beautiful. anyone can see it; except her. why can`t
she just learn to love herself instead of putting herself
through all this agony? she`s never good enough for
herself. doesn`t see what the point of her living is. life
is hopeless for her. she gets an overdose && feels the
rush of death.
.. ANOTHER WASTED LiFE. <//3

It kills me to know you're online
and you won't talk to me! it's just time
i realize that i don't mean anything to
you-- and never really did..

im sorry if im giving up
too easy  i  just  dont
have' the strength
to fight anymore

When this is said & done
I really hope you look back &
wonder if maybe falling in love
with me wasn't such a bad thing

Sometimes you meet someone,
and before you know their name,
before you know where they're from,
you know that sometime in the future,
this person is going to
mean something to you.

i think
the only reason
everyone holds onto memories so
[t i g H t]
is cause
memories
are the only thing
that doesn`t change
when everything else
[d O e S]

I know Im not the most b e a u t i f u l
Most fun or most e x c i t i n g  person you'll ever meet.
But I do know no matter how long or far you search
You will never find a girl who l o v e s  you or c a r e s about you
The way that I do<33

TWENTY YEARS from now i`m gonna look back
and remember that you were that one person who could
turn every frown into a smile in a few simple words. that
person who lifted my head when I was losing faith in my-
self. that one person who caried tears on her shoulders
after every fight, every break-up, every death. that one
person who always knew what I was feeling by the look
on my face. that one person who accepted who I was when
everyone else laughed at my face. that one person who
accepted every decision I made believing that i’d make the
right decisions. that one person who knew who I really was.
that one person that made the biggest difference in my life
MY BEST FRiEND<33 ..... that i no longer have

&& i'm so fucking sorry for who i am

so i love this boy. he's my world. but he doesn't care.
he's off with some girl, probably. she's most likely prettier
than me. she's probably nicer and smarter too. but no matter
how great she is.. she'll never love him like I do.

youu` know very well
that i can keep my hands
to myself but my god ;
you should see this boy
when he smiles.... hee hee thats for some one! hahah

i always fuck up the things i love.
ALWAYS.... thats really fuckin true for me ne ways!

you know you truly care
when you have to try and
convince yourself you don't..

i get so weak in the knees
i can hardly speak
i lose all control 
and something takes over me
in a daze your (l.o.v.e) is so amazing
its not a p*h*a*s*e
i want you to stay with me by my side
i swallow my pride
your love is so sweet, it k n o c k s me right off of my feet 

The only guy that deserves you...
is the one that thinks he doesn’t.
The one that’ll stick by your side...
no matter how much you mess up
&& the one who will forgive you...
mistake after mistake

When i see him, i melt..
i look at him & see the two of
us together..i wanna be with
him so badly..& i wanna be the
reason for the smile on his face
..want him to love me & hold me
..& i want him to know that i love
him too..
and thats not ever changing.

its easy to believe someone when they
tell you exactly what you want to hear.

10 shaking fingers trace my 9 fading scars. They run over the8 new open wound. Within7 minutes, I start losing my sight, and6 times I almost blacked out.5 more minutes and I know Ill be gone. The4 pillows propping me up start to fall. 3 tears slip down my cold cheeks from2 red eyes. But after all is said and done,1 more chance would have killed me faster

`m not gonna get drunk to please the crowd
i`m not gonna be a slut and sleep around
i`m gonna say what I think and say it loud
i`m gonna say what I believe and stand proud
i`m gonna be me no matter who i`m around

She has everything & more yet she still breaks down in tears at night, I guess there really is more that meets the eye

And incase you were wondering, you are everything to me.

&& i sit & listen to everyone elses love stories & im thinkin to myself "wheres mine?"...

These dreams can only last so long. <//3

pretending that I’m ok is better than letting it show
because the questions that they want to know
remind me of the reasons for my pain
and their sympathy & fakeness are the same

its not that i want you, or that i love you... its just that i miss us, the way you made me feel like i was the most important thing in the world, the way we used to stare at each other across the room, the way you made me feel so beautiful, and i always knew you would be there for me--–-----

if i could show you
how much you've hurt me;;
you'd never be able to
look me in the eyes again

you assume that I’m fine, but you don't know how
to read between the lines. I swing from moody & callous
to giddy & humorous in point-one second. That's'
not because I’m easy going or feeling guilty for being
off-hand with you. It's lack of confidence & self esteem.
It's trying to fit in & trying to hide the scars at the same
time. Maybe I’m doing a good job; & that's why you don't see.

you'll never know what it's like to be me
to spend half your day being someone
your not.. & then going home to be
something you never intended to be. </3

I want be the reason you smile.

The tears take control, its addicting… but she hides them and tells herself it’ll be okay. But, that’s the part that hurts the most. It’s a lie. All of it was. Everything was. The taste of tears is sadly not new to her.

go ahead,
Hurt me,
Break me,
Ruin my life,
I'm used to It by now.

THE PARAMEDICS SAY;
ISNT IT A SHAME? SUCH A PRETTY GIRL
DID SUCH AN UGLY THING....

she doesn’t know what’s right and
she doesn’t know what’s wrong she
only knows the pain that comes
from waiting for him so long and
she doesn`t count the teardropps
that shes cried while he’s awayy
cuz she knows down deep in her
heart he’ll be back again someday